Toxicity - Tumblr Posts
Communication feels like arguing when you have a hard time expressing your emotions.
Today, I will not let the actions and feelings of others affect my internal peace.
Today, I will keep my internal peace in mind when I talk to others.
Today, I will say and do things that care for my mental health.
Today, I will take care of myself.
*AU where Enji is slightly less toxic and Touya is abt to do the UA entrance exam*
Enji: You’re going to be alright.
Touya: Yeah, yeah, I know
Enji: Don’t get stressed.
Touya: I’m not
Enji: You know your mother and I will support you no matter what.
Touya: I- I know
Enji: Just think of it as another day in training.
Touya: Right yeah, I know
Enji: Calm down.
Touya: I’m not-
Enji: Stop being so stressed
Touya: But-
Enji: Just do it as we’ve practiced.
Touya: …
Dear men,
You are loved. You are heard. Most importantly, you are needed. Please keep showing up, but more importantly show up for yourself first, because that’s when it’s a life worth living.
Thank you , i needed this because of the way my life has been going 😭
manifesting a good day for every tumblr girl out there in the cruel unforgiving world
Okay guess who has a sad life... yeah that's right... me.
No honestly... all my friends had a new years party and I wasn't invited and one of them fucked up and send me snaps of them celebrating and now my best friend is... gone honestly no clue where he went but damn... love my life. I am not a very active person nor am I the person who gets out much due to my mental health which gets worse and worse by every minute and I seem to continue to spend my time with people who don't care about me. So I guess I'll cut all of my "friends" off due to the fact that they don't care about me or my mental health and continue to make fun of me when I am not around which I found out like 1 minute ago because my best friend texted me... gotta love 'em
I just had to get that of my chest somewhere and I know none of them know about my tumblr blog so... here you go if someone can relate... just cut these people out of your life they're not worth your time even if you end up with no friends better than not being cared for at all nor included in literally anything they do.
It literally is almost 6 am and I haven't slept yet not because of getting drunk or whatever but because of a mental breakdown... gotta love it.
Btw this is like day number 8 of sleeping 2 hours and staying up til sunrise I think the longest I stayed awake for this last week was yesterday with going to sleep at around 8 am... I am fine. This is fine.
i want you to be addicted to me. i want you to have withdrawals when im not around. to think about me constantly. to need my voice, my touch all the time. i want you to need me, crave me & be obsessed with me. make me your god & i'll show you how i repay your devotion.
Piece Of Meat 🥩 (my toxic relationships music video)
I've been on WhatsApp for over 5 hours now....why?...it's because someone body shamed me for posting a picture of myself. I don't post any of my pictures at all...I'm 19, let me clarify.. this fucker doesn't know my age or even know me..we just go to school together...I posted a picture of myself today and he said...
"stop posting this picture you look more than your age"
"But if you want me to post your picture don't send that pic send another"
"Put the picture as your profile picture"
I feel completely drained, hurt and disgusted
I constantly posted his reply on my status so that he could at least realise what he did wrong....but to no avail
it bothers me that you often don't really hear about people having a "favorite album" the way they might have a favorite movie or favorite video game
I learnt it's best to approach a potential long term friendship carefully. Outline your boundaries and issues immediately, constructively, and allow them to do the same. Retain an understanding that slip ups will happen, and continue to work on mutual change.
As an example. I might tell you in advance that I can't fix issues you don't tell me about, so it's best to tell me about any boundaries or "rules" ahead of time, and inform me if and when you realise new ones.
Establishing a boubdary
Personally, I don't like repeating myself more than 3 times and I get progressively discouraged each time I have to repeat myself— so I'd prefer that when we talk, you try to keep your attention on me. I don't mind if something comes up, but it helps me to feel heard and acknowledged when I know you're paying attention to me.
Tw: blood, weapons, violence, injury, betrayal and anger
Idk I might line and color this some other time but here’s a vent sketch I made bc some people are bitchass liars bc they act like it’s your fault you crossed boundaries they never indicated to you were being crossed or even existed and expected you to change the minute they finally got their head part way out of their ass and at least told you like you can change deeply ingrained behavioural habits over night
If you do this I hate you.
I know the post itself is a joke; at least I hope so. It's tagged as much. Despite that, the engagement makes me feel people relate and enjoy the revelation— that troubles me.
If our friendship is so weak, so insignificant, that you can't be authentic enough to say you don't want to do something, what's the point of our connection?
Better yet, what kind of friend can't be bothered to spend one day doing something they dislike, so they can spend time with a friend? When we did we normalise such shallow transactional relationships.
As someone with BPD and DPD, doing this kinda thing just messes with my head. I can't feel like I can depend on you for support if you lie to avoid doing things with me. I can't trust you if I feel like you're repeatedly avoiding me.
System of a Down 😻😻😻
Gente, minha família comprou lanches aqui em casa (big mac) E ELES ME OBRIGARAM A COMER SO PQ “foi caro”
Eu comi 1 big mac e dps um pouco de coca zero
Depois de tudo eu tomei MUITA água e fui pro banheiro, liguei a torneira e brinquei com os dedos na minha garganta, eu achei que seria atoa, que eu n ia conseguir miar.. MAS EU CONSEGUI PORRA! fiquei MUITO tempo sem tentar ou conseguir miar, mas hoje eu consegui e eu miei uns 4 minutos dps de comer o lanche
Enfim, viva a mia!
my love i am sorry i was mad at first figuring it was the usual dramatics but i was wrong this was important to you and i refused to see that just because i did not value it did not mean that you shared my sentiments you cared and i did not you deserve more respect than i gave you i may not have understood the matter but i could at least have respected it.
Decided to try out another technique of drawing style, and I gotta say I frickin' like this. Heck, maybe even more than like, I hella LOVE these!
TW: Bright Neon Colours, Blood Splatter
"Toxic BLU & RED Version!"
Fact, If the BLU Version colours reminds you of BLU Lime Scout, then would yah' look at that I thought the same.
I never actually use this account too much anymore. However I feel I need a safe public space for me to rant and talk about my issues anonymously. I’m coming to terms with the fact my long time friend is replacing me with someone who absolutely hates me. It’s been extremely painful. Especially since their friendship was so odd to begin with. my best friend would constantly tell me they were only friends with this person because they “felt bad for her”. Even their S/O had told me they didn’t really like them. But i’d see posts of them calling this person their soulmate or their best friend. This was so confusing and conflicting to me. especially since my friend told me this person was “forcing” them to post these types of things. They have even called this person a bitch before. However i’m getting fed up. i’m getting tired. i’m tired of being the person initiating every conversation. I’m tired of putting all this energy into someone who hasn’t showed me they genuinely cared in months. I’ve lately been in a situation where i’ve had to be around this person for a short period of time every day. This person who i feel they’re replacing me with hates me. They’ve talked shit about me, and tried to convince my best friend that I wasn’t a good person. There was so much drama that happened for so long. But i’m finally done. I’m tired. And i don’t think I deserve to feel this way. A best friend should make you feel loved. appreciated. someone who makes you laugh. someone you’re excited to be around. Not someone who you stay up late at night crying about. Not someone who gives you panic attacks because you feel you aren’t good enough, or that they might hate you. This is incredibly painful for me. and i’m not sure what to do anymore. I just need someone. i feel so so so alone.