Bpd Vent - Tumblr Posts - Page 2
people when mentally ill person is acting like theyre mentally ill
I feel so fucking drained rn to the point my interests are becoming less interesting to me and all of my friends hate me and I'm so fucking insecure that it's killing me from the inside out.
i don't think I'll be able to have the energy to carry on with my life atp..
REAL, and it gets worse when they actually confirm your beliefs by getting mad at you for having that belief in the first place.
i hate that BPD gives me such a lack of emotional permanence.
you can spend hours describing the ways in which you care about me, yet the moment you stop my brain will immediately decide you hate me and are destined to leave me.
you ignore me because you hate me. admit it. now. go. vamos
this but instead of just my parents it's also the american school system (and school had a greater impact on me btw)
Also my ex friends manipulated me for years and are pissed that I know the truth about them.
How come parents just casually neglect you in your childhood, purposefully get you addicted to your device and are now crying because of how their child turned out, as if it wasn’t completely their fault
"It's no big surprise you turned out this way, When they closed their eyes and prayed you would change, And they cut your hair and sent you away, You stopped by my house the night you escaped, With tears in my eyes, I begged you to stay, You said, 'Hey, man, I love you, but no fucking way' " ~Twin Size Mattress by The Front Bottoms
Still find it hard to believe that people forget I had to deal with a lot of long term trauma and it's manifested into this disorder that completely distorts my perceptions of relationships and self image and will display shitty behavior because of said disorder impacting me in some way.
10/15/2024
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Today I went to Walmart with my mom to get some groceries, and while we were in the bakery section, I saw some really pretty flowers. Roses, sunflowers, I think a couple of lilacs.. Just beautiful ones.
I know I'm aromantic, but I really wish a boy bought me a bouquet of flowers to make me feel special. I wished they kissed me on the cheek too while they were at it.
Why can't I get that kind of love without something coming in and fucking it up?
god I hate being single....
// CW Vent art //
I had a bad episode.
Collaborative sketches from us on how bpd feels.
the feeling of crying when someone is in the same room as you and they still don't notice...
they're leaving me. they're leaving me again. for good this time... i knew it would happen because everyone abandons me sooner or later but i didn't want to acknowledge it. they are leaving me all alone in this godforsaken country with NO ONE.
i can't be alone again please...
my ed/bpd follows me everywhere, even all the way to my dreams. and im just so tired, sleepy, exhausted, and have so many things i need to do today...
god i just want a moment of peace.
it's during moments like this - lying on my bed utterly and hopelessly sick and in pain, with no one to help or care for me is when i realise that...
huh maybe i truly am all alone.
god please, i am just so, so tired.
